Tufer Tuesday!
April 8, 2008 at 9:17 pm | In Culture, Cute Guys, Gay, Israel, Work | Leave a CommentTags: Work, Yossi & Jagger, Luke Wilson, Silvio Nascimento, Coming Out, Eytan Fox, Ohad Knoller, The Bubble, Walk on Water, David Soul
Let’s just get right down to business, shall we?
Work
I rang the good major and let him know – or rather left him a voice mail to avoid a phone tag situation.
I was working late and so was CH, a young captain who works in my office and as we often do after hours we fell to chatting. C rang but I didn’t want to interrupt so I let it ring through to voice mail. CH wanted to know who it was and I said “you remember, my friend, C____.”
“Oh, he wants you to come home.” (Jovially.)
Well, with my stunning and quite inimitable talent for interpretation I figured that he ‘knew.’ But I wasn’t sure so I said, “You do know C and I are partners?”
“Partners? What do you mean?” (Seemingly genuinely mystified.)
“You know. Partners.” (Significant look.)
“Oh, like that.”
He hadn’t known. Oops! He asked me if I was always ‘that way’ (I have always been this way) and allowed how he thought that ‘homosexual people’ were born that way. After all “thank God” he was born the way he was. (Not sure I know or want to know why the Deity was dragged in.) He didn’t seem too upset, but time will tell. He did mention an errand that we have to run together so I guess he’s not utterly freaked out. I hope not, he’s basically nice, and I enjoy chatting to him.
Play
I didn’t go work out tonight.
I have however, just come from a break in watching a lovely movie called ‘The Bubble.’ I love it so far – it’s directed by Eytan Fox (“Walk on Water” and “Yossi & Jagger”) and stars Ohad Knoller from the second and Joe Sweik from the former. I’ll let everyone know how it turns out. (You may remember Y&J had our former obsession Yehuda Levi in it – Ohad Knoller was his boyfriend (or partner!) in that film.) Here’s a trailer….
I have another new DVD to watch – David Soul Live in Concert (from 1984). Aren’t you dying of jealousy?
No Need to Die of Jealousy

I’ll share Mr. Wilson with you. Here he is in some shots from a press event for his film Alex and Emma. He actually looks a little annoyed. Perhaps he’d just learned that I was unavailable, you know, since I have one of those partners…I know I’m coming across snarky and I don’t mean to, but it is awkward to know what to call C & me, and me & he. I hope everything works out and I have an enjoyable workplace.
After a Hard Day At Work
Apparently it’s nice to shower and clean up, at least, that’s what Silvio Nascimento thinks….


(Now that he’s dripping, it’s important to rub him down, or is that the wrong way ’round?)
It IS all about me!
April 5, 2008 at 4:56 pm | In Cute Guys, Exercise, Work | 2 CommentsTags: Luke Wilson, Silvio Nascimento, Work
Well, that’s how it’s been seeming.
Yesterday, I did 60 rather tough minutes at the gym with NO eye candy to speak of whatsoever. The first 30 were in the hot hole in the basement, and exhausted me so badly I couldn’t think about checking out the weight room like I’d wanted to. The second thirty were upstairs where it was cooler. Now I did notice one guy on an elliptical, nicely built, and he was really going fast and furious. I kept wondering – what would he be like in bed? Would he also go at it fast and furious? Would he be fun? Tiring? Demanding? The things that go through one’s mind. Towards the end I was going really fast myself but then I was listening to Relax! by Frankie Goes to Hollywood and imaging Paul Rutherford all sweaty…I think I’ve got to do some more strength training like Neal wants me to do. Luckily I have his list of exercises here…somewhere…I swear!
Friday night we went to a Mongolian barbecue place in Laurel – I had mostly vegetables. I actually really like it there, even if they close a bit early; you can put pretty much what you like in your bowl and enjoy a stir fry to your specs, as it were. I usually load up on pineapple, cabbage, carrots, and ginger. I love carrots and pineapple together.
The Adjustment
It’s been a bit of an adjustment after making my big work decision; despite my better judgment I had begun to disengage; things said had stopped bothering me because after all, I was going to be gone soon, and a member of management and all that. The reality of being ’stuck’ at First Army hit me a bit Friday, but I’m sure I’ll find another job. Even if it means calling that career counsellor like I’d put on my back burner. A lot of back burner things are now back on the front burner, and vice versa. (Like I was going to go suit shopping but I shan’t bother now.) One good thing has come of all this – I’d gotten ‘Getting Things Done’ out of fear of being swamped by new responsibilities and my work life at my current job is a lot more organized as a result of it. Not sure about my home life but it’ll come too, don’t you think? I also got to have fun making labels with my label maker. I’ve always loved stationery even from a kid – my favourite shop was W.H. Smith’s and I love Day Planners and Filofaxes.
The Visitation
Neal came by and we talked about my ‘intake’ as it still needs some tweaking. This past week wasn’t so bad with the exception of a Crispani at Panera. Who could possibly believe that two small slices of that thing is supposed to be a serving. It’s too darn tiny and yet it stuffs hundreds and hundreds of calories into it. Grr. Especially maddening is the realization that their delicious chicken soup is hardly any calories at all and is (as I say) delicious.
Lazily I didn’t get up in time to go to the gym this morning so I’ll have to try to work it in tomorrow as C and I are going over this evening to see our friends K and D. That visit will be another visitation which I will try to write about tomorrow. I’m going to bring over Season One of the Mary Tyler Moore Show.
Neal would like us to stop ordering our groceries from peapod.com and having them delivered; but it’s so darn convenient. I agree we should eat more fresh vegetables and get them in from real stores, but that alone will be a big change. We are trying more vegetables like leeks and fennel and things. He also thinks that C isn’t supportive of my efforts but that’s utter BS as I’ve written about in the past. It’s nearly all my own fault (and a bit of food marketers). I think his ultimate goal is to have both of us work with him.
Okay, so hearing about other people’s dreams
…can be boring but you might find this interesting, from last night.
I’m with Mary Tyler Moore (Richards) but we’re in New York where Mary (now) works. First I’m walking with them to the subway which is in a huge wide plaza. A plane is flying in to the airport and as we watch it wobbles a bit and flies into a bunch of skyscrapers. Everyone says ‘how awful’ and goes on to work. The plane crash has caused our office to flood so we have to work ass-deep in water with cars and filing cabinets floating by. However, nobody suggests we stop.
Suddenly I’m with Rhoda’s brother and his friends and we’re walking to a mobster’s house. His pet weasel attacks me and I try to fight it off. I fight it off so well that it gets hurt and we decide we’d better flee to avoid revenge. We get into an enormous car and drive off very fast though the city. As we drive along I see people being car jacked in an odd fashion; muggers walk up their car brandishing guns but don’t seem very threatening; the drivers could drive off but don’t; instead they argue and sort of try to distract the muggers. I ‘know’ (the way you know things in dreams) that this is perfectly normal here. We pull into a block ‘knowing’ that the mobster is behind us but here, you can get fake licence plates for your car. See, the enormous car is the mobster’s and we’ve stolen it from him! We get fake plates and drive away but pull into a parking lot and steal a Suzuki Tracker instead. Piling in, we drive up a long hill suddenly in the city of Falkenberg(?), Alabama and stop at a house to hide out in.
The house is an artists’ colony of sorts and we are welcomed in by gentle spirit type people who do glassblowing but haven’t quite worked out that they could sell their decorations and make lots of money. In any event they are more interested in hugging and sleeping in their one huge bed at night. The gentle spirit people and I all go to a park for a picnic (the mobster and Rhoda’s brother/friends being forgotten) and talk about how there isn’t much to do in Falkenberg(?) except go to the beach. The park is on a very steep hill and I’m taking pictures of everyone and the gentle people are carrying on, when a group of military academy students appear at the bottom of the hill, see us, and start jeering. Well, I figure since I work for the military I can relate to them too, and so I go down and sort of tell them off for being rude. I remember saying that I appreciated their military sacrifice but they weren’t the only tough people in the world, that these gentle spirit people were also tough for living according to their own convictions and that if they would just speak to one another they’d probably find they would have a great deal in common. Magically (for such is the way in dreams!) they agreed to stop being rude and a tentative friendship was established. I caught one of the gentle spirit men looking at me with admiration and lust; luckily for me he wasn’t a walking wookie. I don’t remember much – my ’sex’ dreams never have actual sex in them, unfortunately, just some about-to-happen situations.
Admiration and Lust
Somehow seem to describe feelings arising from this set of photos of our marvellous Luke, don’t you think? (
Do you like WordPress’s new ‘gallery’ feature? I hop you do because it’s a lot easier for me to use. You can click on any thumbnail to embiggen it.
Lust and Admiration
Is something you may feel from this video, the ‘making-of’ video from our farmer boy Silvio. He seems one to make the process look so natural and easy. (Looks like you can no longer embed the video player – I’ll try to find a work-around.)
(Oh, to be a production assistant charged with body make-up issues)
Just to Catch Up
March 28, 2008 at 8:06 am | In Cute Guys, Exercise, Work | 2 CommentsTags: getting things done, Luke Wilson, Silvio Nascimento, walking
Just a quick post to catch up on my comings and goings….
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Went for my psych testing on Monday and the review with the psychiatrist on Wednesday. Thursday was the interview. Not sure how it went; usual dumb questions like ‘give an example of you working on a project when something unexpected happened.’ Sheese. How is this question designed to figure out how well I’d fit in in the real world – when was the last time on your job that you had to remember a past happening toute de suite?
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The results of my tests were (1) that I’m very intellectual, (2) that mundane tasks bore me, (3) that I’m a bit cynical, (4) that I lack self-confidence, and (5) that I’m in the 99.9th percentile for being self-critical. Nobody who knows me seems surprised!
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Exercise has been a bit wobbly of late – 60 minutes Monday (with some unexpected eye candy in the DC office gym), nothing Tuesday, nothing Wednesday, 60 minutes last night (with some major eye candy in the base gym – including PHG [Pointy Hair Guy] looking tall and striking as usual). I still must write up my food tonight to give to Neal on Saturday – I’ll have to get C to help me.
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I put the “Getting Things Done” principles to work on my Entourage software, and then imported my appointments and tasks into iCal since I think I’m going to be using that soon. I’ll have to post an update to my resolutions soon.
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C made a delicious dinner last night – he took steaks and pounded them really thin, then he fried them and squeezed lemon juice over them. He also heated up chick peas (garbanzo beans) with arugula, sherry and cumin. It was delicious indeed.
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Big luncheon today at work so will have to eat sparingly tonight.

Speaking of eye candy, here’s Luke touching something powerful, throbbing, and beautiful between his legs. Oh, and he’s on a motorcycle, too. Here’s also our mini-obsession, Silvio, continuing his farmboy fantasy.
(Wanna grab a bull by the horns?)
Easter’s Here
March 23, 2008 at 9:04 pm | In Cute Guys, Exercise, Family, Friends, Work | Leave a CommentTags: Easter, getting things done, Luke Wilson, Silvio Nascimento, Work
Friday Night Club
Met at a sushi restaurant for lots of raw fish. I love sushi – it is low in calories and makes you feel like you’re having a real treat. Our friend CK wasn’t able to be there but we had a good time. Of course, I had to blurt out “don’t let the evening end” half way through but those dinner meetings have been the big thing for me to look forward to in the week since 1989 or something like that.
Moving Along
Well, we had a lovely Easter, which is good because Saturday was on the crummy side. First off I walked for fifty minutes before Neal the Personal Trainer guy. I wanted to do longer because (a) I felt I could and (b) there was some high quality eye candy on an elliptical cattycorner from me. Short, handsome, friendly. Very inspiring as was “Chuck” on my iPod. Neal kinda pissed me off though by sort of implying strongly that C is controlling and preventing me from eating better. Of course, idiot me relayed that to C because I’m an idiot, and he got rather upset as anyone might. Of course, I felt a bit put between this one and that one, but my total loyalty is really to C. Also Neal is wrong; I ‘get by’ C’s support through a cunningly intelligent strategy of whining, cajoling, and outright begging. However, he’s quite able to stand up to me when he needs to. I just hope that I’m not too overbearing all the time.
But the tension didn’t make for a good day, despite finding some pappardelle at Three Brothers Italian Market, along with some delicious panettone for easter.
However, it wasn’t all grim and we’d all made up by the end of the day and our dinner of salmon fillets on a bed of leeks.
I bought a file stand to go with my new efforts to be productive in accordance with the principle of Getting Things Done and 43 Folders and all.
Even Further Along
So today we went to mum and dad’s early for Easter lunch and we really did enjoy ourselves. Delicious ham and quiche and corn casserole and crab casserole and cup cakes and of course my insanely cute nephew and niece. My niece especially seems to be progressing by leaps and bounds; she’s bright and charming and very very verbal. And she eats cupcakes like mad – okay so they were mini ones but she shoved the entire cupcake into her mouth, chewed, had a sip of water and then wanted another!
On the way home we went to drop of some water at my office and then we drove by a building where I have to go for ‘psychological standard testing’ tomorrow on Fort Meade. I’d applied for this job in addition to the one I’m upgrading my clearance for. I don’t have it but I have to go through a six hour screening process to see if I can. Bit much, but AFAIK I don’t need an upgraded clearance and it’s not supervisory.
On the other hand, I don’t know if I will ever be able to progress much further without going supervisory. And something inside me, perhaps only because I thought it inevitable, had sort of gotten psyched about being supervisory. But the clearance was still making me nuts.
Speaking of Going Crazy
Luke Wilson can make me crazy in these pictures from a photoshoot from Italian Vogue. Is that a hint of a hairy chest one sees? Check it out by clicking on High Fashion Luke.
Well, maybe it is and maybe it isn’t. I think in some he looks like he’s sucking on a lemon but perhaps that just the half-turned up eyebrows thing. What do you think?
Speaking of All Wet…
Okay, we weren’t but let’s – as spring continues to slowly slide in here in the northern hemispher, it’s descending to autumn in the southern, where Brazil and Silvio Nascimento are. Here, our lad looks oddly cold in a tropical pool…




Duty Done
March 18, 2008 at 4:46 pm | In Cute Guys, Family, Gay | 5 CommentsTags: Jury Duty, love, Luke Wilson, Silvio Nascimento
All done at the jury pool and I’m free for another three years. Here’s how it worked. After we’d all signed in we were sat in a large room, about a hundred or so of us. The first case on the docket required 37 jurors to pick from (only 12 would be sworn in) so the juries supervisor called out 37 names and handed each one a numbered green card. The next case needed another 37, so another 37 of us were called out and given a numbered blue card. My group, 57 of us, got purple cards (I was purple #5). Then we waited. I studied Georgian for a bit (more to come when I move my notes from my laptop in a bit). The green group were called out to a jury room, and then came back. They were called out again, and came back. The blue group were called out. Then we were told that they’d seated all the jurors they needed and we were free to go. Yipee! All I have to do is keep my stamped summons to prove my attendance to work, and in case I get called within the next three years.
Lunch at Gah Rahm, so I’m glad for the hint about tonight’s dinner with mummy (probably at an Italian restaurant near her house). Once again that place leaves me feeling bloated.
Our New Mr. Obsession
At least one person has guessed – it’s star of the big and little screen Luke Wilson (talent and looks seem to run in his family, wouldn’t you say)? I’ve always thought though that “Owen’s Younger Brother” or the “Perennial Boyfriend” was by far the better looking of the two acting Wilsons, and I loved “Bottle Rocket,” “Home Fries,“”Best Men,” and “Legally Blond.” Despite his being wet and shirtless in “The Family Stone” I didn’t really heart it – I empathized more
with poor old Sarah Jessica Parker’s outsider part. I’ve not seen “Alex and Emma” yet, nor any other LW films that I know of, and I won’t see “Old School.” It has Will Farrell in it.
Just for starters here’s two of Mr. Wilson sitting on some deck looking luscious with a restrained palette of greys and blues and tans (that’s one pair of oddly constructed trousers he’s got on) — click on him to make him yummily big and see what I mean…
Speaking of Best Men, I remember showing it to my friends and being so nervous. I have a bit of a reputation when I suggest movies of suggesting only gay-themed ones or only Starksy & Hutch reruns. But then, if it’s not a kiddies’ film, and the most juvenile ones at that, nearly every film has a straight theme, when you sit and think of it, doesn’t it? I needn’t have been nervous – they really enjoyed it. But sometimes, when I see a bit about two men in love, and they’re say smooching, I feel happy inside, and sometimes I find it erotic, and I think afterwards – is this what straight people see all the time, at romantic movies or such?
I may never know that feeling of belonging that might (must) come from seeing somebody like oneself kiss somebody that one might want to kiss, all approvingly filmed, or I only know it rarely. Certainly not in most spheres; perhaps that’s why I empathized with SJP’s part. Always the not-quite fitting in, or conscious of a conscious effort to be fitted in.
Not that I’m complaining exactly – I’m sure it’s at least partially or even mostly a case of the grass being greener and all, and it’s not like I don’t have good friends and a wonderful life, because I really do – so wonderful it sometimes frightens me, but it’d be nice to feel normal for awhile. Not that I don’t think that it’s possible that nobody feels normal. But I think some people feel it more than others.
On a lighter note, here’s LW on Letterman talking about his elementary school days and a teacher who called everyone “Bob:”
And Mr. Mini-Obsession
Not that he’s all that mini – Brazilian model Silvio Nascimento (Birthing Wood??? hehehe well, that’s what I get from translating his name), here in a Terra The Boy photoshoot, in full on farm boy drag, with apparently some trouble with his overalls’ buttons:


(Lucky wheat stalk!)
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